Im the Mama

Ive been a mother for 20 years now and Id love to share my experiences with you about the ups and downs of motherhood marriage and trying to hold it all together in today worlds

Monday, 27 June 2011

why did i get married??

Why oh why did I get married?? All I do is fight with my husband who I swear Is a social path
Our latest battle is because I went to my sisters house for a few hours and he kept texting me non stop he won't allow me to go anywhere on my own. And when I got home he said horrible things to me. - can't take it anymore!! I have no privacy no independence. No me time!! I feel like I'm being suffocated. I've been married now for 11 yrs and I think maybe a week out of those yrs has been tolerable !!! I can't leave because he won't let me. So - feel trapped and unhappy.

Friday, 17 June 2011


I read the most amazing book last night called the ROOM  by Emma Donoghue . Its about a girl that was kidnapped by a man and imprisioned in his garden shed for 10 yrs she gives birth to a little boy while  trapped in this room  It was so good  I read the book in one sitting because I couldnt put it down. It speaks in the little boys voice  so we are being told the story by a five yr old . Even though its a horrendous situation there is alot of humour in the story  showing me that even in lifes darkest time the soul can find joy

Thursday, 16 June 2011

waitng for the kids to get home

Well here I sit waiting for the kids to
get home I didn't accomplish much today but
Make the beds do the dishes sweep tweet go for pet supplies
My husband is driving e nuts today last night he was ranting and raging.
Today he acts lie nothing happened and well his behaviour truely makes me upset
And he is not a person I even want to be friends with right now
I really need to get a job and make some friends I feel so isolated. The only people I hand with are my children
Whom I'm adore and my husband who I can barely tolerate right now. Ahhhhh well such is life
I wonder if there are any other women out there who don't have the perfect
Lives. Trying to survive and be happy just like me